So I have been a very, very busy girl. I started at a new job...quit..found a different one..and have been there for the past two months. This place is nice, the hours are a bit wonky...but the pay is good and I like the people. So all in all I am a happy camper. Other than that, I am getting my ass back into school as of June 6th.
Nursing and I have been having a love/hate relationship. One minute I am all gung-ho for it, the next I am trying to think up something else I would rather do. But in the long run, this is the right path for me. Just not where I originally planned to be. I am not just stopping with my BA..eventually I will go on and get my MSN and either my NP or become a CRNA. I think I would be happy in either job. Though, I will not be able to make the final decision on that until I actually take chemistry again and see how I like it. Chemistry is a large part of CRNA, as well as pharm.
Jaxon has been a good little boy. His vocabulary is growing my leaps and bounds every single day. It is fucking scary, really. I love that little boy more than life itself. Every time I don't want to go to work or get back into school, I think of the future I can give him with the proper education and training that I am recieveing at both places. Yay for being a responsible mommy!
Ugh, time to take off and get a bit of rest before it is time to go to work. Yep, that's right...I work 11 pm until 730 am. Crazy schedule, I know. LOL.
Wednesday, May 25, 2011
Wednesday, April 6, 2011
Adventures of a young child...
Today, after I got up from sleeping, Jaxon and I took a stroll down to the park behind the elementary school. He held my hand and walked the entire way, his little feet pattering on the sidewalk. I kept looking at how tiny his feet are in his new shoes. Sometimes I just want to scoop him up and not let him get any bigger. When we finally got to the park, I found out they had a merry-go-round, much to my delight! That had been one of my favorite things to do at the park. I could spend hours in the center staring up at a twirling sky. And these things are pratically extinct. You very rarely see them. So imagine how giddy I was when I found out there was one a few blocks away!
So I put Jaxon on it and told him to hold on to the bar. And then I spun him. The look on his face was utterly breathtaking. A mix of surprise, fear, adventure, and straight awe. It was..amazing. He was giggling, throwing his head back and laughing. When it started to slow, I grabbed the bars and ran a bit more, jumping on to sit next to him. He grinned at me like he hadn't a care in the world as we whirled around together. He giggled, I laughed..and I realized this was what being a mother was all about. Those little moments where the world is amazing and still and you just have a wonderful memory to carry away from it. I'll always remember that time on the playground with my baby.
So I put Jaxon on it and told him to hold on to the bar. And then I spun him. The look on his face was utterly breathtaking. A mix of surprise, fear, adventure, and straight awe. It was..amazing. He was giggling, throwing his head back and laughing. When it started to slow, I grabbed the bars and ran a bit more, jumping on to sit next to him. He grinned at me like he hadn't a care in the world as we whirled around together. He giggled, I laughed..and I realized this was what being a mother was all about. Those little moments where the world is amazing and still and you just have a wonderful memory to carry away from it. I'll always remember that time on the playground with my baby.
Sunday, April 3, 2011
Royal Dreams...
Last night I had the strangest dream. I was a prince (yep, I was a man) and my father or someone that was close to me..and I were visiting another royal family near my own country. There was going to be a coronation for that ruler and we were there to witness it. For some reason my relative, while we were holding a private meeting with the soon to be crowned monarch, stab and killed the ruler without my consent or prior knowledge. Then we had to run for our lives to avoid being killed. We dressed as commoners and were trying to make our way back to our home country. Weirdest dream ever.
Speaking of sleeping..Friday night I tried to let Jaxon sleep in bed with us, because he was really upset when he woke up. So we settled down to bed pretty easily..an hour later I wake up and the boy is wrapped like a koala bear around the back of my head and he is petting my hair muttering. Then somehow he flips his little self over and starts kicking away. He had to go back to his bed after only an hour. But he settled down pretty easily. Something tells me that this boy is not made to sleep with his parents. He likes his space, which is awesome.
Other than that..nothing to report. ^.^
Speaking of sleeping..Friday night I tried to let Jaxon sleep in bed with us, because he was really upset when he woke up. So we settled down to bed pretty easily..an hour later I wake up and the boy is wrapped like a koala bear around the back of my head and he is petting my hair muttering. Then somehow he flips his little self over and starts kicking away. He had to go back to his bed after only an hour. But he settled down pretty easily. Something tells me that this boy is not made to sleep with his parents. He likes his space, which is awesome.
Other than that..nothing to report. ^.^
Made of Awesome...even if you think it's broken!!
Today I was reminded why my life is so much different than other people. I have to start out by saying what I had, does not make me any less of a great person. My circumstances made me a stronger, brighter, independent woman. My mother helped to shape that. I did not need anything else. And just because you have two parents, does not make you better than me. I never felt like I was at a disadvantage. I never felt like I was any less loved. I did not need a father, do not need a father, to feel complete. My mom did a damn good job, despite the odds.
People that think any less of that amazing woman, should be slapped. And I will be the first one to pimp slap a M.F.
Lesson here: Do not talk down to other people because they lack what you think is necessary. Because I loved every single minute of my childhood, and I have no regrets. You aren't better than me because you had two parents and your trying to rub it in, only makes you look like an idiot.
~ A.
People that think any less of that amazing woman, should be slapped. And I will be the first one to pimp slap a M.F.
Lesson here: Do not talk down to other people because they lack what you think is necessary. Because I loved every single minute of my childhood, and I have no regrets. You aren't better than me because you had two parents and your trying to rub it in, only makes you look like an idiot.
~ A.
Monday, March 28, 2011
Melancholy sucks....
Honestly, I have been feeling a bit melacholy lately. Ha, well there is a word I haven't used in awhile. I have lost weight recently, which is awesome. Ten pounds! It's a step in the right direction..but not a big enough step. I have faith though that when I start at this new job, that I will start losing weight again. Goal is 40 lbs by Oct. If I reach that goal, I am going to be Akasha for halloween. Atleast that is the general idea. I might do something entirely different.
Sometimes I wish I had not shared the existence of this blog with people, because now I feel like I can't say what it is I want to say. There are things that others don't know about me. While it is not something that is dangerous, it is something that some people that may read this will never understand. So...I'll keep it to myself.
Lately I've noticed that I am shedding those old friends and getting closer to a select few. Lala is one of the consistent few, and I am grateful to have her in my inner circle. I feel like I can talk with her about anything, which I have that with very few people. Anyways...I need to get my ass back in school...I miss class and I want to get this damn degree done...
Bah this is useless rambling...time to take my butt to bed.
Sometimes I wish I had not shared the existence of this blog with people, because now I feel like I can't say what it is I want to say. There are things that others don't know about me. While it is not something that is dangerous, it is something that some people that may read this will never understand. So...I'll keep it to myself.
Lately I've noticed that I am shedding those old friends and getting closer to a select few. Lala is one of the consistent few, and I am grateful to have her in my inner circle. I feel like I can talk with her about anything, which I have that with very few people. Anyways...I need to get my ass back in school...I miss class and I want to get this damn degree done...
Bah this is useless rambling...time to take my butt to bed.
Friday, March 18, 2011
INSOMNIA EL SUCKO
It took less than one week for me to get hooked on nights? I hate this crap. I get tired and if I even think about laying down, I have to lay there for hours on end. And even than I pop up out of bed in the afternoon. Ugh. This is no bueno. Nights are really, really going to funk up my schedule. I miss being a day person dang it. I really, really do.
In other news, I got a new job. Thank the lord in heaven..because that other place was a nightmare. No breaks, the machines broke down at critical moments (IE with a resident suspended in mid-air above their wheel chair), the staff was clearly out to get one another, people yelled at one another and generally did not respect each other. And last but not least there were over 30 total dependent cares residents for 2 people. That is insane to me.
Hoping that this new place is better. I have heard already that it is. I am also going to be getting my med aide here soon. I need to get back into school! Speaking of school, I made the dean's list again. Woot. Take that, all A's 3.8something GPA. I am hoping, praying that my GPA is good enough to get me into SOME sort of nursing program. Still a long ways off, but definately something that has to be considered at all times.
Other than that, this weekend I am doing 2 photo shoots. A gothic sort of themed one and than an engagment photoshoot on Sunday. I am nervous and excited all at once. I hope it goes alright, I really do.
After a week or so of working at the crazy place, I am pretty sure I may have lost a bit of weight. Not sure how I feel about it. I do want to start P90X or something like it. Hubby canceled my gym membership. That needs to be fixed soon. I miss going to the classes!! Other than that..nothing big has been going on besides the fact that my son is pretty much chatting. Why does he have to grow so dang fast? I miss him being little bitty baby Jaxon.
Alright, I am going to TRY and sleep. Good night all!
In other news, I got a new job. Thank the lord in heaven..because that other place was a nightmare. No breaks, the machines broke down at critical moments (IE with a resident suspended in mid-air above their wheel chair), the staff was clearly out to get one another, people yelled at one another and generally did not respect each other. And last but not least there were over 30 total dependent cares residents for 2 people. That is insane to me.
Hoping that this new place is better. I have heard already that it is. I am also going to be getting my med aide here soon. I need to get back into school! Speaking of school, I made the dean's list again. Woot. Take that, all A's 3.8something GPA. I am hoping, praying that my GPA is good enough to get me into SOME sort of nursing program. Still a long ways off, but definately something that has to be considered at all times.
Other than that, this weekend I am doing 2 photo shoots. A gothic sort of themed one and than an engagment photoshoot on Sunday. I am nervous and excited all at once. I hope it goes alright, I really do.
After a week or so of working at the crazy place, I am pretty sure I may have lost a bit of weight. Not sure how I feel about it. I do want to start P90X or something like it. Hubby canceled my gym membership. That needs to be fixed soon. I miss going to the classes!! Other than that..nothing big has been going on besides the fact that my son is pretty much chatting. Why does he have to grow so dang fast? I miss him being little bitty baby Jaxon.
Alright, I am going to TRY and sleep. Good night all!
Thursday, March 17, 2011
Writing Prompt 421: A Glittering Cavern
Mara closed her eyes against the heavy wave of perfume that wafted in her general direction upon entering the ballroom. The mixture of scents had her stomach lurching violently within the vice grip of her corset, causing her to place a hand flat against her belly to keep from spilling the slim contents of her stomach onto the floor. She straightened her crooked shoulders, pulling herself up to her graceful five foot nine inch height. The curtains before her parted as the sounds of trumpets sounded to announce her arrival. The roaring crowd came to a sudden standstill, eyes turned in the direction of the newcomer. They all had known her, watched her grow up at a distance. Now she was their Queen, bred from the cradle to rule once her mother passed on.
Now that the mourning rites were over, a coronation had taken place but a few scant hours before. Mara had adorned a gown of Coranian silk the color of lavender for the occasion. Threads of silver and gold were shot through the fabric at the cuffs, collar, and hem. Ellaborate little flowers and vines curled their way about the delicate seams and were a nice contrast to the heavy coronet that rested against her brow, gold and gleaming in the faint light of the ballroom. Mara sailed forward through the gauzy curtain archway that had been created when the filmy fabric had been swung open to reveal her to the room.
The ballroom had been decorated with what looked to be thousands of candles on tall pillars and sconces on the wall. The crowd had parted, allowing Mara to drifted forward, and as she passed the people lowered themselves to show their respect and alliegence to their new Queen. The path that had been created led the way to the once crowded dancefloor, where a familiar face stood waiting. Restari, her head of the guard, stood at it's center, resplendant in his uniform of dark blue and black. Some of his medals caught the light of the sea of candles, causing them to glitter before her eyes. Her approach slowed once she stood before him, and she accepted a bow and then his hand.
When flesh touched flesh the strings of a waltz filled the air and Mara was pulled into the familiar arms of her long time friend and guard. The beaming smile that was so familiar to her, beamed down upon her. A bubbling of laughter started in the pit of her belly and worked it's way up like a volcano that was errupting. Her head spilled backward and she laughed for the first time in months. Her eyes found the ceiling, where lanterns had been attached, strung across the glass dome of the large, round building. The room truly was a glittering cavern.
Now that the mourning rites were over, a coronation had taken place but a few scant hours before. Mara had adorned a gown of Coranian silk the color of lavender for the occasion. Threads of silver and gold were shot through the fabric at the cuffs, collar, and hem. Ellaborate little flowers and vines curled their way about the delicate seams and were a nice contrast to the heavy coronet that rested against her brow, gold and gleaming in the faint light of the ballroom. Mara sailed forward through the gauzy curtain archway that had been created when the filmy fabric had been swung open to reveal her to the room.
The ballroom had been decorated with what looked to be thousands of candles on tall pillars and sconces on the wall. The crowd had parted, allowing Mara to drifted forward, and as she passed the people lowered themselves to show their respect and alliegence to their new Queen. The path that had been created led the way to the once crowded dancefloor, where a familiar face stood waiting. Restari, her head of the guard, stood at it's center, resplendant in his uniform of dark blue and black. Some of his medals caught the light of the sea of candles, causing them to glitter before her eyes. Her approach slowed once she stood before him, and she accepted a bow and then his hand.
When flesh touched flesh the strings of a waltz filled the air and Mara was pulled into the familiar arms of her long time friend and guard. The beaming smile that was so familiar to her, beamed down upon her. A bubbling of laughter started in the pit of her belly and worked it's way up like a volcano that was errupting. Her head spilled backward and she laughed for the first time in months. Her eyes found the ceiling, where lanterns had been attached, strung across the glass dome of the large, round building. The room truly was a glittering cavern.
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