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I am a tired, tired, tired woman. I can not express to you the amount of bone wariness that I carry in me right now. And yet here I am at 130 in the morning, writing on a blog that I have once again neglected for over a month. Goes to show how good of a blogger I am. Peh.

So I started back up at school again. But this time I am working on top of it. Why? Because I am a 'tardo and I want to burn out and kill myself. The first week was hell, this second one at the end is going to suck. I work Thur-Sun. There are no days off for me. It's either homework and class, or homework and work.

This is the cycle that never ends, yes it goes on and on my friends.

God I bitch alot. Oh well. No one reads this shite anyways. And MF's I will cuss if I want. I have to get up in the morning and finish my homework for Psych. Ugh, I can not wait for this semester to be over. OVER I say. Especially this damn math class. One more semester of that, and I should be done. No, I lied I still have to take Stats. UGH.

On a positive note, I think I have found the best course of action, and that is to go to UNMC. I can still go to Metro and do ALL of my Gen. Eds before I waltz into the big university and take the nursing classes that I need. It just seems like it will fit my schedule/timeline better.

I have also lost damn near 30lbs. Now mind you I have been a disgusting slob when it comes to eating habits, but since I work so much and walk so often at work I have been losing weight. 30 lbs! Big Mama say WHA? Now only like 60lbs to go. Time to make some new rules.

NO MORE: Pop, Sugar, Fast Food, Fried Food.

However; Sunday is amnesty day. You may eat and or drink whatever you want. Also, working out of some kind needs to begin again. FIND TIME IN YOUR SCHEDULE HO!

60 lbs is a long ways to go, but I am sure that I can do it. Push ups, sit ups, and maybe walking a good distance a day will help me start losing again. I don't want to be a fat ass forever. And I can't risk falling back into unhealthy bs again. Maybe I should start working on myfitnesspal again. Yeah, I think so. Starting tomorrow.

Alright all, time to go to bed. Have to do Psych in the morning. -.- It is all worth it in the end. It is all worth it in the end. It is all worth it in the end. That is my new mantra.

PS I am fat and fabulous, get over it.

Melancholy sucks....

Honestly, I have been feeling a bit melacholy lately. Ha, well there is a word I haven't used in awhile. I have lost weight recently, which is awesome. Ten pounds! It's a step in the right direction..but not a big enough step. I have faith though that when I start at this new job, that I will start losing weight again. Goal is 40 lbs by Oct. If I reach that goal, I am going to be Akasha for halloween. Atleast that is the general idea. I might do something entirely different.

Sometimes I wish I had not shared the existence of this blog with people, because now I feel like I can't say what it is I want to say. There are things that others don't know about me. While it is not something that is dangerous, it is something that some people that may read this will never understand. So...I'll keep it to myself.

Lately I've noticed that I am shedding those old friends and getting closer to a select few. Lala is one of the consistent few, and I am grateful to have her in my inner circle. I feel like I can talk with her about anything, which I have that with very few people. Anyways...I need to get my ass back in school...I miss class and I want to get this damn degree done...

Bah this is useless rambling...time to take my butt to bed.