Melancholy sucks....

Honestly, I have been feeling a bit melacholy lately. Ha, well there is a word I haven't used in awhile. I have lost weight recently, which is awesome. Ten pounds! It's a step in the right direction..but not a big enough step. I have faith though that when I start at this new job, that I will start losing weight again. Goal is 40 lbs by Oct. If I reach that goal, I am going to be Akasha for halloween. Atleast that is the general idea. I might do something entirely different.

Sometimes I wish I had not shared the existence of this blog with people, because now I feel like I can't say what it is I want to say. There are things that others don't know about me. While it is not something that is dangerous, it is something that some people that may read this will never understand. So...I'll keep it to myself.

Lately I've noticed that I am shedding those old friends and getting closer to a select few. Lala is one of the consistent few, and I am grateful to have her in my inner circle. I feel like I can talk with her about anything, which I have that with very few people. Anyways...I need to get my ass back in school...I miss class and I want to get this damn degree done...

Bah this is useless rambling...time to take my butt to bed.

Brick Walls...

Alright, alright so the trip to Ashland did not go over as well as I would have liked. The store that we ended up going to was...pathetic to say the least. There were dresses there, but most of them were size four monstrosities that should not have seen daylight. To say the least, we are still searching for wardrobe ideas for the photoshoot. A minor snag, I am sure.

Lala was the only one to go with me. Unfortunately the other gals weren't feeling up to it. It was a 20 minute drive to the place. We ended up looking at another little shot, consignment something or other. I bought a cute skirt, that actually fit me pretty well. Cute, and only 9 bucks. Will have to post a picture of it when I don't feel like such a whale.

Hubby and I ended up going out to dinner saturday. It was nice to get to spend some adult time together. I ended up falling asleep before 11 pm though. I think I am getting too old to be doing crazy crap like chugging Mai Tais. BAD idea, I do not recommend!

Today was spent looking over crafting things, eating lunch out with my husband, and all around laziness. I will admit though that I have ate far too much this weekend, and I plan to kick my ass in the gym all next week. Jesus, I am ashamed of how many calories I must have consumed. It boggles my mind. Sometimes I wonder how the hell it was that I was ever anorexic with as much as I eat now. Doesn't make a damn bit of sense. Sometimes I wish I had the self restraint I had when I was restricting. Maybe I would eat less of what is bad for me, and focus on shit that is good. Eh. Whatever.

On a high note, I got a flash for my camera! And filters! Lala friggin' rocks!