Love of my life..

I think I have figured out that my baby is afraid of the dark. Poor thing. He gets so distraught when I put him down to bed and the light gets turned off. I think I may have to get him a night light so that he doesn't get scared in the middle of the night, especially since he has been waking up and coming in to sleep with mommy and daddy. God I love that little peanut. He is my heart.

On the school front...I start back up next Tuesday. I am kind of excited, but moreso I just want to get in..and get this done. I want to have my degree and be living my life..not puttering around in school again. But, you know what, I will suck it up and work it out..because it's for the best in the future. I don't want Jaxon to have to worry about anything when he's older. He will have a college fund..and it will all be paid for..if he decides he wants to go to college. Besides..I want to be able to spoil him with a car when he turns 16..and trips to Disney World or something.

I need to update his more often..record the things that my bug says. He's so funny..and so damn smart. He knows his shapes! Heart, square, star, circle. So smart. So very, very smart. He also loves when mommy sings to him before he goes to sleep. I can not believe how big my baby is getting. Seems like just yesterday. *Sigh* I just want to hold him and make him quit growing..pause the moment and keep it like that forever. Tomorrow I need to take some new pictures of him.

I am going to try and update weekly..if not daily..I want to better record what he does every day. I don't want to forget anything about these days. Not a single thing.

Adventures of a young child...

Today, after I got up from sleeping, Jaxon and I took a stroll down to the park behind the elementary school. He held my hand and walked the entire way, his little feet pattering on the sidewalk. I kept looking at how tiny his feet are in his new shoes. Sometimes I just want to scoop him up and not let him get any bigger. When we finally got to the park, I found out they had a merry-go-round, much to my delight! That had been one of my favorite things to do at the park. I could spend hours in the center staring up at a twirling sky. And these things are pratically extinct. You very rarely see them. So imagine how giddy I was when I found out there was one a few blocks away!

So I put Jaxon on it and told him to hold on to the bar. And then I spun him. The look on his face was utterly breathtaking. A mix of surprise, fear, adventure, and straight awe. It was..amazing. He was giggling, throwing his head back and laughing. When it started to slow, I grabbed the bars and ran a bit more, jumping on to sit next to him. He grinned at me like he hadn't a care in the world as we whirled around together. He giggled, I laughed..and I realized this was what being a mother was all about. Those little moments where the world is amazing and still and you just have a wonderful memory to carry away from it. I'll always remember that time on the playground with my baby.